Monday, August 29, 2011


Yeah, that would work. I would be so flattered. And I would laugh and laugh and laugh!


I really think my tumblr is going to end up affecting my future career. I need to clean it up...or at least tone it down. I just don't know. But right now I just really like everything. Can my future employers blame me?


Life is going swimmingly. It's going and things are good. I can't risk that right now.


JUST CALL ME. Let this make sense.


All and all, I couldn't be happier. I mean, I guess I could be. would be a different happy. And I can't honestly say that it would have been better for me in the long run. I think this is the best way things can be right now. I'm motivated and I'm grounded.

Monday, August 22, 2011


Blog, blog, blog!

It's been awhile. (ish)

Feeling pretty good. You know. Classes started today. I only had two along with band, so I pretty much felt like I did nothing today. Tomorrow, however, I have four classes. We'll see what happens there.

My hands are freezing and I don't know why. My fingertips are numb. Weird stuff going on.

I don't know why, but I felt pretty badass today.


I'm trying really hard to be practical about everything, but the truth is that I've chosen a path that isn't practical. It's scoff-worthy, I know that. Don't you think I know that? But I only have one life, and I only want to do what I want to do with it. I can't afford to pretend that I would be happy with anything else. If it works out, great, I'll be able to say, "I told you so," even though I won't. If it doesn't work out, at least I won't be asking "What if?"


"You aren't supposed to know that."

Of course not. Because if I know anything, I will use that information for malicious and devious purposes. Give me a break.

I think perspective would be really useful here.


I want a tattoo.
I want one really bad.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011


And today, I said to myself, I said, "My life is changing. Not like life isn't always changing or anything, but today I know my life is changing. It has been for awhile, and I acted like I knew it, but I really had no clue."

I looked up at the sky last night and I said, "Thanks, that was nice."

I laid in bed two nights ago and said, "God help me, I don't know where you are taking me, but it feels right."

And when I took up my guitar today and sang from my heart, in that moment I knew, all I have to do is reach out.

Is it a problem that I reach out for you? Is it a problem? I need to know. Because like I said, my life is changing, I don't think I can afford for this to be a problem. You are either in or out.

My head is screwed on straight again.

My path is clear because it doesn't exist. There are no steps to take. Just me, and my steps--forging ahead, like I was always made to do.

Saturday, August 6, 2011


I needed that vacation. I really, truly did. I needed everyone within an arm's reach. When that happens, I feel like anything is possible. That's what I need to feel right now more than anything. I need to feel unstoppable.

I've got big decisions coming up. The next nine months are going to fly by and at the end, I will need to be prepared to take some steps in whatever direction I need to go.

If you always play it safe, you never get where you really wanted to go. You may be happy, but you will always have regrets.

I am slowly realizing that there is no such thing as playing it safe in my life. I want what I want and that's not going to change. Keep going though the rocks be rugged, and keep going through the rocks--be rugged. That is now my motto. The whole thing.

I am going to be rugged through the rugged rugged rocks.


On a side note, I'm pretty sure I was forbidden to blog more than once a week. This sucks.