I spent the entire day on the computer researching laptops. It's just plain ridiculous. It's pretty much come down to Sony or Toshiba, which is then decided by customer service. Sony already has a reputation of being...uppity, but Toshiba is no saint either. I spent several hours reading horror stories from both brands and it's not like Toshiba had any less than Sony.
I mean, it's not like I expect to have any huge problems that I won't be able to fix myself if need be, but....a reliable no lemon policy would be nice and it seems that it just doesn't exist anymore. Ah well.
I guess it just seems a little more stressful today because I also completed my Master Promissory Note for Lindenwood's financial aid office which pretty much says that once I have taken out a student loan the Department of Education owns my soul.
Jeezuz.
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So, yesterday I went to two graduation parties. I had a good time. (I have to say that now because when I continue, it's going to sound like I didn't.) However, I witnessed the consequences of my actions.
I have been a big supporter of the whole Rachel and Vishal thing. This is because, I figured they have to at least get together, date, and break up so they know what it would have been like.
I also was a huge help to Matt in his pursuit of Colleen. That doesn't sound right, but I don't know how else to explain it.
So now Rachel and Colleen (best friends) have boy friends Vishal and Matt (best friends) respectively. It's a unbreakable unit of four that is totally content with just being with themselves. It's a monster. I've created (or helped anyway) a monster.
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I've just been informed that Punch had to be put down. I feel awful. I feel so bad for Karlee. Words fail me.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Life Post High School
is....not that different. Well, it wasn't. Like I said earlier, I was back every day for Yearbook. It was fantastic. But then I had to leave for Disney World. I have been gone for a week and a half. I want to get back to Yearbook so badly. I mean, it's not like I didn't enjoy my time at the Disney World Resort--I had a great time--but it was so disruptive to Yearbook, which pretty much equals my life.
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To go back to Disney World for a second: I had a great time, I just wish we could have had some down time.
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Anyway back to the big picture of life after high school.
Well, it's strange, because I keep waiting to have to go back to school. You know, like this whole thing is an extended weekend and on some Monday (or knowing our district, a Thursday) I'll have to return to my senior schedule. I suppose this feeling will subside once I actually start college, but that concept is so abstract to me right now that it doesn't actually make me feel any better. I want to go back to school, in all honesty. Just not full time. Haha.
I do enjoy the absolute freedom and flexibility when it comes to being with my friends. Really, my second Family. To put this in perspective, the premise of the hit sitcom Friends may seem unrealistic, but because of my friends, I know it's not. We are the Friends in real life.
This, however, is underscored by the fact that I have not been home in a week and a half. I miss them terribly. It makes me realize how hard college is going to be on all of us. But I'm motivated by them. I know it's worth it. :)
One thing I don't like about graduating is the fact that everyone tells me "Congratulations!"
Congratulations on what? Was there ever any question in my graduating? Congratulations on doing what has now become expected? I mean, I know it used to be a huge accomplishment and a high school diploma used to be the key to success, but now it just means that you can go to college which is now the key to success (in most cases). It just grinds my gears! lol
In preparation for college, I have begun to reread Wicked and Moby-Dick and I am working on the 1998 Pulitzer Prize Finalist, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius. I have also begun to nurse a fledgling interest in sports since Lindenwood is such a sports-intensive school. I am watching College Softball right now, in fact.
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This place used to be
It
The Place
Utopia
But I am not sure
Whether I changed too much
And noticed too much
Or whether it changed too much
Simply due to being stagnant
Either way
I feel guilt.
---
I get it now--why you didn't stay around. Why, regardless of what I did, I couldn't keep you in my life. And even after I cried and prayed and cried and prayed, you didn't return. It's because you wouldn't fit in my Family. It would have been me jumping through hoops to keep both You and Them happy. I would have said it was worth it, but I don't know if it really would have been. Eventually, I would have had to choose between You and Them--a decision I don't know that I could make without losing both. God knew that made the choice for me. And as much as I loved you, I thank Him for that.
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To go back to Disney World for a second: I had a great time, I just wish we could have had some down time.
---
Anyway back to the big picture of life after high school.
Well, it's strange, because I keep waiting to have to go back to school. You know, like this whole thing is an extended weekend and on some Monday (or knowing our district, a Thursday) I'll have to return to my senior schedule. I suppose this feeling will subside once I actually start college, but that concept is so abstract to me right now that it doesn't actually make me feel any better. I want to go back to school, in all honesty. Just not full time. Haha.
I do enjoy the absolute freedom and flexibility when it comes to being with my friends. Really, my second Family. To put this in perspective, the premise of the hit sitcom Friends may seem unrealistic, but because of my friends, I know it's not. We are the Friends in real life.
This, however, is underscored by the fact that I have not been home in a week and a half. I miss them terribly. It makes me realize how hard college is going to be on all of us. But I'm motivated by them. I know it's worth it. :)
One thing I don't like about graduating is the fact that everyone tells me "Congratulations!"
Congratulations on what? Was there ever any question in my graduating? Congratulations on doing what has now become expected? I mean, I know it used to be a huge accomplishment and a high school diploma used to be the key to success, but now it just means that you can go to college which is now the key to success (in most cases). It just grinds my gears! lol
In preparation for college, I have begun to reread Wicked and Moby-Dick and I am working on the 1998 Pulitzer Prize Finalist, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius. I have also begun to nurse a fledgling interest in sports since Lindenwood is such a sports-intensive school. I am watching College Softball right now, in fact.
---
This place used to be
It
The Place
Utopia
But I am not sure
Whether I changed too much
And noticed too much
Or whether it changed too much
Simply due to being stagnant
Either way
I feel guilt.
---
I get it now--why you didn't stay around. Why, regardless of what I did, I couldn't keep you in my life. And even after I cried and prayed and cried and prayed, you didn't return. It's because you wouldn't fit in my Family. It would have been me jumping through hoops to keep both You and Them happy. I would have said it was worth it, but I don't know if it really would have been. Eventually, I would have had to choose between You and Them--a decision I don't know that I could make without losing both. God knew that made the choice for me. And as much as I loved you, I thank Him for that.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Bloggggggggging for Bloggggggggging's Sake
I have really great friends. No denying that. But sometimes......I want to kill a few of them.
I have this one friend, really close friend, that I just want to grab by the shoulders and scream: "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW WRONG YOU ARE?"
But, alas, it's not like I have much experience in the subject (except that I lived it) so I can't really do that without feeling like a hypocrite.
And there's this other friend that just threw me for a loop. I really never thought that I'd have to be so...petty...with this one. But then we worked it out so...I guess we are fine? I really don't know. All my friends were boys growing up.
And there are other people who make it all worth it. People who get me. People who love me. People who know I am really just trying to do what's right. Thanks guys.
It's not like I don't care about the first two, but I was just kinda confused with how to work with that. Like I said, all my friends were boys growing up. If they had a problem, they just punched each other. Why can't we do that?
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I saw Ironman 2 today. It was really good.
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It would be really nice if I knew you better. I think we would make a good team. Damn.
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I really hope you make me laugh a lot tomorrow.
I need you now.
Hey...that reminds me of that Lady Antebellum song....
Haha.
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Maybe things would be easier if I were a Power Ranger.....are you listening Zordon?
I have this one friend, really close friend, that I just want to grab by the shoulders and scream: "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW WRONG YOU ARE?"
But, alas, it's not like I have much experience in the subject (except that I lived it) so I can't really do that without feeling like a hypocrite.
And there's this other friend that just threw me for a loop. I really never thought that I'd have to be so...petty...with this one. But then we worked it out so...I guess we are fine? I really don't know. All my friends were boys growing up.
And there are other people who make it all worth it. People who get me. People who love me. People who know I am really just trying to do what's right. Thanks guys.
It's not like I don't care about the first two, but I was just kinda confused with how to work with that. Like I said, all my friends were boys growing up. If they had a problem, they just punched each other. Why can't we do that?
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I saw Ironman 2 today. It was really good.
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It would be really nice if I knew you better. I think we would make a good team. Damn.
-----
I really hope you make me laugh a lot tomorrow.
I need you now.
Hey...that reminds me of that Lady Antebellum song....
Haha.
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Maybe things would be easier if I were a Power Ranger.....are you listening Zordon?
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
The Countdown....is gross.
Three more days.
Yeah right.
I'll be back every day next week.
And I'll be back a lot next year.
But
I won't be a part of anything.
And that hurts.
A lot.
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Upon first glance,
You were not
Nothing
But you weren't
Anything
That caught my eye
But upon second glance,
Second chance
You've become everything
And more
How wrong I was about you.
You and so much more.
Yeah right.
I'll be back every day next week.
And I'll be back a lot next year.
But
I won't be a part of anything.
And that hurts.
A lot.
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Upon first glance,
You were not
Nothing
But you weren't
Anything
That caught my eye
But upon second glance,
Second chance
You've become everything
And more
How wrong I was about you.
You and so much more.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I Guess You Just Aren't Up To Par
First and foremost, I want to say that I am soooooo proud of Jordan and the rest of The Polar Pops for winning Battle of the Bands! AHHHHHH!!!
But really, I think Battle of the Bands was an eyeopener for me.
I played in two bands.
Moonlight on the Deck - an 11-13 (not sure) piece ska band.
and
Living Sitcom - originally a 5 piece, but by the time we played a duo, with a a featured conga player on one song.
I am beginning to realize a few things. I mean, I can play guitar decently enough to be in two bands, and I have enough gumption not to back out even if everything seemed to be falling through. Colleen, Ashley, and I wanted to perform so we did. And everybody liked it! Colleen and I put an acoustic set together in two hours and added Ashley on the congas in fifteen minutes. It was so much fun. And that's what music and performing is supposed to be--fun. We were playing in a high school gym for Christ's sake. Haha, no one expects perfection.
I also want to apologize to Colleen about my "dedication" of Cowboy Casanova to Vishal. She had no idea I was going to say that so she shouldn't receive and backlash. However, I am not apologizing to Vishal. :)
Come on, bud, you knew it was funny.
But really, I think Battle of the Bands was an eyeopener for me.
I played in two bands.
Moonlight on the Deck - an 11-13 (not sure) piece ska band.
and
Living Sitcom - originally a 5 piece, but by the time we played a duo, with a a featured conga player on one song.
I am beginning to realize a few things. I mean, I can play guitar decently enough to be in two bands, and I have enough gumption not to back out even if everything seemed to be falling through. Colleen, Ashley, and I wanted to perform so we did. And everybody liked it! Colleen and I put an acoustic set together in two hours and added Ashley on the congas in fifteen minutes. It was so much fun. And that's what music and performing is supposed to be--fun. We were playing in a high school gym for Christ's sake. Haha, no one expects perfection.
I also want to apologize to Colleen about my "dedication" of Cowboy Casanova to Vishal. She had no idea I was going to say that so she shouldn't receive and backlash. However, I am not apologizing to Vishal. :)
Come on, bud, you knew it was funny.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Could You Believe There Was A Time When I Thought You Were Weird?
The Nashville Band/Choir Trip was amazing.
We basically won everything. Total Dominance.
Tammy's face when she won a soloist award was priceless.
Now if only she could stay that way.
Everything went without a hitch.
No stranded buses this time.
The Micaela/Vishal/Rachel/ (and as of friday Jen)/ (and as of today Colleen) thing exploded. I'm waiting to see where the pieces land before I move them.
Ah well.
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It's kinda scary when I think you are mine.
And just when I thought you were ripped from me,
You came back stronger than ever.
I love you.
:)
We basically won everything. Total Dominance.
Tammy's face when she won a soloist award was priceless.
Now if only she could stay that way.
Everything went without a hitch.
No stranded buses this time.
The Micaela/Vishal/Rachel/ (and as of friday Jen)/ (and as of today Colleen) thing exploded. I'm waiting to see where the pieces land before I move them.
Ah well.
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It's kinda scary when I think you are mine.
And just when I thought you were ripped from me,
You came back stronger than ever.
I love you.
:)
Monday, April 12, 2010
I'm Really Glad We Had This Talk
I had a lovely talk with my friend Jen last night. She always makes me sort things out. She always let's me talk about anything I want--anything that's on my mind. I really appreciate it.
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How am I to walk away
When all you ask is for me to stay?
How am I to free my heart
When you keep falling a part?
I need someone to steal you.
Someone to draw the line.
Someone to rip you from my grasp.
Until then, you are mine.
Limit this
Stop this
Because I can't.
I just can't.
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I picked out my classes for college. I'm stoked. I also went to Prom. That was fun. I mean, it was just another night with my friends. Except....there aren't too many of those left, I guess. I'll have to really pick and choose what I focus on from now on. Who I will focus on. Let's just hope I can be objective.
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How am I to walk away
When all you ask is for me to stay?
How am I to free my heart
When you keep falling a part?
I need someone to steal you.
Someone to draw the line.
Someone to rip you from my grasp.
Until then, you are mine.
Limit this
Stop this
Because I can't.
I just can't.
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I picked out my classes for college. I'm stoked. I also went to Prom. That was fun. I mean, it was just another night with my friends. Except....there aren't too many of those left, I guess. I'll have to really pick and choose what I focus on from now on. Who I will focus on. Let's just hope I can be objective.
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