Sick

I have a cold. For the first time in like......ten years, I have a cold. And my back/neck hurts.

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So, I was thinking about having people for New Year's Eve for the soul purpose of seeing Colleen. But then I get a text from Vishal this morning (it was actually at around 10:45 last night, but I was already asleep because I have a cold) that he's having people over. I've never been to Vishal's house. Naturally, I have to attend. PLUS, Vishal is awesome.

However, now I have to devise another way to see Colleen. Lord, I miss her. So much.

If she read this, she would know.

But then she would know.

MIA

It's hard to imagine that it was only a few months ago when every song I ever heard always reminded me of you. I was convinced that you were all I ever needed. You were it.

It's still like that, except you won't talk to me. You won't trust me. We can't talk. It's not a broken heart. It's a missing heart.

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And we were so convinced that we would be okay. That we were different than everyone else.

Guess not.

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Today, while in the car to AL, I decided to soundtrack my movie (that I haven't written). I came to the conclusion that, instead of having a professional soundtrack it, I just want to reassemble the Seckman Dominance Program. Quartet, Jazz I, Symphonic Band. YOU KNOW.

Brett and Jordan will arrange the pieces.

If I need something modern, Rory can make in FL Studio.

Like, I'll have a few pop songs, but I'm not going to use a lot.

SO THERE.

This Day (Yesterday) Has Consisted Of...

Almost going to Seckman.

--Twice.

Getting really Angry at my phone.

Yelling at my phone.

Downloading FL Studio Demo....like 8 times.

Watching Tegan and Sara/Hayley Williams Interviews.

Downloading the Unlock Torrent....like 8 times.

Playing Pokemon Platinum.

Downloading two separate torrent viewers.

Restoring my computer.

Downloading a Harry Potter Theme for my computer.

Realizing that my computer has a huge problem because I have two program folders folders.

--Program Folders and Program Folders (x86)

I have no idea what that is.

But I don't like it.

And now I am blogging.

I realize that the reason why I had such trouble with the whole torrent thing is that right when downloading music and movies illegally was REALLY COOL and everybody learned how to do all of this, I did not have adequate internet, so there is a major learning curve there. But I'm working it out.

Stands With A Fist

Today was a decent day.

I went to David's Guitar Loft - Neat little guitar place in Fenton that I always pass but never go inside. WELL TODAY I DID. It's pretty cool. It's run by a husband and wife I'm pretty sure. And they have a dog. It's kind of ironic really.

I went to Target and got a new blouse and sweater for Family* Christmas. It was really exciting because I think I am finally defining a clothing style for myself.

Wow....that sound superficial....great.

I went to Khol's and SAW MONICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <----This was obviously the highlight of my day.

That's it.

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Eighteen months is not a long time. It will be here and gone before I know it.

I can't wait.

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Still bored. Rockband/Movie Night needs to happen NOW.

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*Family actually means Family+Vishal.

Look out! Blog Police! Haha!

The Blog Police told me I needed to blog. :)
I was planning on it anyway.

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I love the movie Dances With Wolves. It is the only movie that my family can sit down and watch together. I mean, we watch other movies together. Like if we rent a movie to watch or something. But that's one time. My dad has seen this movie at least fifteen times. My mom and I have probably seen it about half that. My brother has seen it twice. It's a three hour movie (the extended edition is over four), but we love it.

And I guess it's probably part of the reason I want to get into film. I grew up watching one of the best movies out there.

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I got an A in Philosophy of Religion. I am very pleased! My total GPA for this semester is a 3.83. If they don't let me take more than 18 hours next year, I am going to be pissed.

Why do I want to take more than 18 hours, you ask?
Well, remember my blogpost about graduating in 2012? In theory, I could do it. I could finish all my gen eds and all the major requirements in that time (by doing summer classes at Jeffco). However, LU (along with most universities) don't award a degree to you unless you complete at least 128 hours. No matter how I cut it, I'm 8 hours short.

But seriously. THAT'S NOT EVEN A SEMESTER'S WORTH OF CLASSES.

I know at MSU, they let Sarah Perry take extra hours if she got recommendation letters from former teachers backing up her academic awesomeness. I'm going to talk to my adviser (isn't that "advisor"? Spellcheck is saying that that is incorrect...) about it. I mean, if I have 3.8, I transferred in 31 credits, AND it would be impractical for me to HOLD MYSELF BACK ACADEMICALLY just to satisfy a condition (see what I did there?), then there must be something I can do. I got a five on the AP test for crying out loud. (LU is still really impressed by that.)

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My finals are over, but everyone else's are just beginning and it feels really weird.

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Mom is a bigger Amanda fan than me. HAHAHA.
#videocameracreeper

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I'm bored.

It's No Wonder Why She Doesn't Talk To Me

After all, I am The Worst Friend Ever.

I could not possibly feel worse about our relationship. I mean, I say, "we should hang out," but we don't because I bail. I say, "sure, I'll go to your concert," but I can't because I HAVE to babysit.

(That's a completely different issue - This sounds dramatic, but basically, Mother refuses to acknowledge that it is possible that I could have a prior engagement on a night that she wants me to watch Christopher. Like, that's great, I love hanging out with Christopher BUT I SAID I WOULD GO TO COLLEEN'S CONCERT WAAAAAAYYYY BEFORE I KNEW ABOUT THIS. SORRY. But, alas, that doesn't matter to Mother. I suspect this is due to the same reasoning that produces the idea that a driver's license means nothing when it comes to knowledge of driving.)

I miss my best friend, Colleen. A lot. And I don't know when I am going to see her next. And that really pisses me off and makes me sad.

I am tearing up right now.

"We're Pointing Out the Obvious"

My last day of the semester was yesterday.

Today was my first day of six week break.

I eat pizza a lot.

I have a make-shift recording studio in my room.

I made it into the upper symphonic band at school.

I wrote a really awesome song today.

I'm pretty happy.

I don't know what I am going to do for the next month and a half, but I'm pretty sure it's going to be awesome.