Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Purpose Defeated

I wish I could stop caring and just say what I feel. I mean, isn't that what a blog is for? BUT NO. I have to censor everything and talk in code and use unspecific pronouns.

I say I'm ready to face it, but I'm not. It's funny because even when I feel like I am getting somewhere with this, I make myself remember that I won't be finished working until I--[fill in the blank]. And I am not ready to face that. To face them. Everything is tense now as it is, I don't need to add to it.

The worst part is that I can't focus on anything else. At least I know that I have time.

What does it feel like to actually get what you want?


Crazy for you. said...

Natalie, can you please explain this blog and the one right before it? I would like to understand these feelings. :/

Can't Jump For Joy said...

Elizabeth, I suck and I just noticed this comment. You can call me if you would like, and I would be happy to explain them to you.