There is so much I could do, but there is so little I am allowed choose.
The choices I have made so far have done little to satisfy me. No matter what I do, I remain in this state of gut-wrenching uncertainty. But I can feel that soon this state will end, and I will have nothing to show for it. I need to find my path. I need to break through, break out of this soon or I will be stuck making the best out of choices I had nothing to do with.